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Rebecca Moon Ruark's avatar

I really, really love this--and I totally get it. I can recall the faces still, 20 years later, of my most treasured nontraditional students in English 101 and 200. How I loved them! And woke up in the middle of the night thinking of their stories. If your knack for seeing beauty is a flaw in our too fast, too surface-y world, I don't know, I say let your flaw flag fly. Lucky students, lucky schools to have you in them. Sharing--hope that's okay!

Rebecca D. Martin's avatar

Thank you for sharing, Rebecca! Glad you understand, too, and not surprised. :) What's hard about it is the way it drains me. The way I can't really be a writer on a teaching day. The way I need a nap afterward before picking my kids up from school. It feels like it takes too much--and yet it also feels like I was made for it.

I looove "let your flaw flag fly" :) :)

Rebecca Moon Ruark's avatar

I'm sorry if I minimized the strain--and drain--of teaching. Why are the most fulfilling things also the most tiring? Anyhoo, I hear your struggle and a lot of love in your post! (I was just thinking to my editor self: ooo, I'd love to see an essay about all this, but that's just one more thing on the to-do!!)

Carri's avatar

"Not because it doesn’t matter to us, but because it matters too much." Yes.

Rebecca D. Martin's avatar

I know you know, Carri.

Alexandra's avatar

Halleluja! Also, there is a wider lens one can utilize to indeed contain all the beauty. It’s nonduality. You’d love it.

Rebecca D. Martin's avatar

Ooh investigating now...

Megan Willome's avatar

"That I would never trade my poet self, not for all the peaceful brain space in the world."

So much of this essay was so helpful to me. Thank you.

Rebecca D. Martin's avatar

Oh Megan, I am so glad.